Lovable?

When Kregg was first diagnosed with cancer, I asked him if he knew that his family loved him. Without hesitation, he said "yes." I could tell by how quickly he answered that he was confident in knowing that we loved him.

Quite honestly, I had to ask him because over the years he has not been easy to love. For most of his adult life he has showed little interest in anything other than alcohol and tobacco. He has not cared for himself. At times he has been embarrassing and difficult to be around. None the less, we loved him and he knew we loved him.

This morning I realized that many of us are no different. We make it hard for others to love us by what we say and do...or by what we don't say or don't do. We also make it difficult for God to show us His love he has for us. We know God loves us and always will but we cause him pain because we wont let Him love us like he wants to love us. We keep at a distance. I know that God wants to pour His love on me. I want to be lovable. I don't want to miss the one true perfect love relationship God offers through his Son Jesus Christ. I want Kregg to know how much I love him and...of all things... cancer has allowed him to be more lovable.